it seems by the end of the last post that i got bored rather quickly. but here i am again, about 3 months later. my business is going well. im not making a ton of money but im learning a lot. i know i will be making more money soon. i just need time to continue making mistakes and learning from them.
i always feel the need to produce. i feel like shit otherwise. then i think too much about it, "if it's not perfect i won't like it and everyone will think i suck."
you have to just do things without thinking about, or being attached to an outcome. you need to continue moving forward. it is very easy to think yourself into inaction. especially since sitting there is easier than working.
one of the most amazing bible stories is that of sodom and gomorra. after god tells lot to leave the city, and bring all his family, he tells them that if anyone looks back at the destruction, they will be turned into a pillar of salt. and of course lot's wife, being a typical woman, looks back at the destruction anyway, and becomes a pillar of salt. i believe this was god's way of telling us that looking back will paralyze you. it is the path that will kill your dreams. just keep moving forward, don't ever spend time thinking about the past, or the sins you used to partake.
it costs so much energy just to be in the present, any leftover should be spent on the future. a lot of us spend our energy wrestling with the past. we pretty much live there, and unless we turn our heads forward again, the past is where we will stay.