3 Timothy 3:1-9
“But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power.”
there has never been a more important time to walk with the LORD. the modern world has officially reached sodom and gomorrah levels of degeneracy, and it seems that without God, there is nothing we can do about it.
not only is the modern man rampant with degeneracy and sin, but they show pride in it as well. they parade in the streets about it. whether we're talking about abortion, homosexuality, adultery, pride, sloth, or greed, it all comes from the same origin, which is satan.
Christ said "let he who is without sin, cast the first stone." i certainly do not claim to be perfect, i have sinned so much i could never remember it all. but people take advantage of this quote, either because they want an excuse to continue their evils or because they dont understand the meaning. people use this phrase as a way of saying, "you have sinned before, you are not perfect, therefore you have no right to point out what im doing wrong, and you have no right to try and stop me." people who understand Christ's message should very easily see the absurdity in this. Christ does not want us to condemn, or harm the sinner, but he wants us to show them how they are wrong, and to correct them. to stand by and allow the sinner to continue his evil without making an attempt to put an end to it is nearly just as bad and definitely more cowardly. after all, Christ did tell us that he did not come to bring peace, but a sword.
in the last decade, if not earlier, it has been made clear that there is an outright, worldwide attack on Christianity. you can see evidence of demons everywhere you look. “pride” flags hang higher than the flags of nations. “pride,” one of the seven deadly sins, has been a worldwide movement for the last decade. parades throughout all major cities, celebrating sodomy and adultery. naked homosexuals marching around flaunting their degeneracy children, women having double-digit sexual partners before marrying an unfortunate man, “men” spending years of their lives playing nintendo and posting about it on reddit, this is what we have come to embrace as a people. it seems like most of the world has fallen into complete hedonism, and all it took was iphones and facebook to kickstart it all. the boomer generation kicked off the hedonic lifestyles with their greed, but the generations following have covered just about every other deadly sin without missing a beat.
like Nietzsche said, God is dead, if only he knew what was to come, his 19th century mind im sure could never be able to comprehend the current landscape. God is absent in modern men. and what i mean by that and what Nietzsche meant by that is not that there is no God or that God has abandoned us, but we have abandoned God. subconsciously, because we have access to all of humanities information and data in the palm of our hands, we equate ourselves to Gods alike. modern man believes not only does he not need God, but he is a god in and of himself, and thus, they worship themselves. morality has become subjective as “now, there is no need for some centuries old book! we know right from wrong!” except you dont. right and wrong is not subjective. how could we all agree on what is moral and what is immoral if everyone makes up their morals themselves? without God, this becomes futile. without God, you have no reason to follow morality when it does not benefit you, so you wont.
what we are left with is women whoring themselves on the internet in countless ways, having unrestrained amounts of sex partners while they are still young and attractive, and if they get pregnant, hey, its okay, because they can go to a doctor so he can kill the baby - in the name of “women’s” rights of course. love is nowhere to be found.
what we are left with is men who create nothing, spend there days playing playstation, watching pornography, masturbating. lusting over demonic women on the internet, giving them their money, somehow not realizing that that women he’s giving money to barely sees him as human. the few men that are successful with women are out constantly, trying to swindle dumb and naive women into bed with them, like a fisherman casting line after line, waiting to catch whatever was willing to take the bait. love is nowhere to be found.
we are living lives devoid of God, thus we are living lives devoid of love.
2024-06-16
2024-06-13
no sleep
this may be something that most cant relate with, but i barely sleep. ive been dealing with this forever. i sleep like every other day, and i usually get my sleep while the sun is out.
june 3rd was my birthday. i just turned 26. maybe i am alone in this, but i never have been able to picture myself in my 40s or 50s; and definitely not after that. i always wonder if this is something irregular. i feel like since i was young i have just expected myself to die young, and my actions have shown this. i tend to live like i dont have much time left, and in doing so, it makes it more likely that i will not have much time left.
i dont want to say that i am depressed, but, there is definitely something at work in my soul, something that i do not understand. i so desperately want someone to tell me they understand. i have met people who feel something similar, i can tell by how they describe it, but it's never exact. no matter how well things are going for me, i cant get away from the awful feeling. in the best of times, i felt okay only due to distraction. im always left with myself at the end of the day, and no matter what evidence i have that proves that i am indeed "good," i dont think ill ever believe it.
they say that anxiety is living in the future, and depression is living in the past. well, i have absolutely no anxiety anymore. i used to be filled with it, for years i was. but as enough time has passed, enough horrific failures and terrible life events, i just dont care anymore. there is nothing i can go through that will be worse than something i haven't already lived. that just leaves me with depression though. the memories, regrets, bad decisions, its hard to forget. for some reason i allow these thoughts to ruin the good moments i do have.
in a way i blame society for a lot of what i feel. things are so backwards, and i know im not alone in this feeling. just look at the data on the amount of antidepressants that are prescribed. things are set up to be so against human nature. we think that because we have iphones, netflix and doordash that all of our problems are solved. really, we are just too distracted to pay attention to them most of the time. the world is filled with unhappiness, and instead of us fixing the root cause of all our issues, some dipshit doctor gives us pills to take the unhappiness away. and if you pay attention to the world even a little bit, its pretty self evident the pills arent working very well. God forbid we give up our facebooks and our instagrams. we all know that that would be way too much to ask.
a lot of women say to go to therapy, but therapy is a literal joke. capitalizing on the insane amounts of loneliness in the modern world, therapy is nothing more than a fake antidote. pay someone to sit and listen to your bullshit, thats the solution? i guess women think yapping about problems is a solution in and of itself.
it just feels like im waiting for something, but i dont know what it is. maybe one day ill figure it out. the closest ive come to feeling alright has been turning to God, i know this takes a lot of effort, and im trying. the LORD knows all, but He doesnt just give us the answers because we are uncomfortable. we have to give ourselves to Him without refrain. if i one day find all the answers, i will be here, sharing them with you.
june 3rd was my birthday. i just turned 26. maybe i am alone in this, but i never have been able to picture myself in my 40s or 50s; and definitely not after that. i always wonder if this is something irregular. i feel like since i was young i have just expected myself to die young, and my actions have shown this. i tend to live like i dont have much time left, and in doing so, it makes it more likely that i will not have much time left.
i dont want to say that i am depressed, but, there is definitely something at work in my soul, something that i do not understand. i so desperately want someone to tell me they understand. i have met people who feel something similar, i can tell by how they describe it, but it's never exact. no matter how well things are going for me, i cant get away from the awful feeling. in the best of times, i felt okay only due to distraction. im always left with myself at the end of the day, and no matter what evidence i have that proves that i am indeed "good," i dont think ill ever believe it.
they say that anxiety is living in the future, and depression is living in the past. well, i have absolutely no anxiety anymore. i used to be filled with it, for years i was. but as enough time has passed, enough horrific failures and terrible life events, i just dont care anymore. there is nothing i can go through that will be worse than something i haven't already lived. that just leaves me with depression though. the memories, regrets, bad decisions, its hard to forget. for some reason i allow these thoughts to ruin the good moments i do have.
in a way i blame society for a lot of what i feel. things are so backwards, and i know im not alone in this feeling. just look at the data on the amount of antidepressants that are prescribed. things are set up to be so against human nature. we think that because we have iphones, netflix and doordash that all of our problems are solved. really, we are just too distracted to pay attention to them most of the time. the world is filled with unhappiness, and instead of us fixing the root cause of all our issues, some dipshit doctor gives us pills to take the unhappiness away. and if you pay attention to the world even a little bit, its pretty self evident the pills arent working very well. God forbid we give up our facebooks and our instagrams. we all know that that would be way too much to ask.
a lot of women say to go to therapy, but therapy is a literal joke. capitalizing on the insane amounts of loneliness in the modern world, therapy is nothing more than a fake antidote. pay someone to sit and listen to your bullshit, thats the solution? i guess women think yapping about problems is a solution in and of itself.
it just feels like im waiting for something, but i dont know what it is. maybe one day ill figure it out. the closest ive come to feeling alright has been turning to God, i know this takes a lot of effort, and im trying. the LORD knows all, but He doesnt just give us the answers because we are uncomfortable. we have to give ourselves to Him without refrain. if i one day find all the answers, i will be here, sharing them with you.