i bought a new laptop because i just started a business. i hope it wasnt a waste of money although ive only spent about $1,000 on it so far, and ive lost much more money on much less productive things before. i've always been sort of entrepreneurial (i can't believe i just spelled that right the first try) minded. my first business, although non-official, was selling snacks, and oddly, phone cases as well out of my locker in 8th grade. one day i came back to my locker after a class only to find the door swung open and my whole stash ransacked. that was the first time in my life i felt the type of anger that later spiraled into something deep, dark, cold, depressing and horrible. though my mindset remained the same throughout my life, entrepreneurial. but that anger i felt right then and there was a feeling i had no idea would become so familiar.
see, part of the reason that angered me so much is because i thought everyone respected me at that school, and above all, liked me as well. the fact that someone would do that and then look me in the face and pretend like they didn't know who did it blew my mind. i mean i understand that people did it, but not to me. how stupid i was back then. i'd pay good money to be that stupid again.
typing this stuff out almost feels like a sort of a therapy session even though i'm talking to myself. i'm gona continue to do this i think. maybe one of us will get something out of it. and if i get bored, ill stop.
God bless